One small change
05 Aug 2010 4 Comments
in In the course of my day, Things that Interest Tags: one small change, purpose
Two years ago, I had a desk and chair, and that’s where my laptop sat and where I sat. It’s where I worked at the computer. I have a wireless router, yes, but the desk and chair were familiar and besides, why not sit there?
Then I got sick. Months of sick. I didn’t know it would be months when I first got sick, but knew it would be at least two weeks, during which time I lived on my living room sofa. I could barely hobble to the bathroom and back, and did I mention I couldn’t bend my left leg? Which made sitting quite uncomfortable. So…. oh, that wireless router, hooray!
I moved my laptop over to the couch so I could still live online ~ we who are addicted to the Internet, heaven help us! But I was and besides, I couldn’t do anything else except watch TV, so I was online more. A lot more. Eight months of more online. Then I finally got well again but by now the desk had become a collection point for cards and letters and medicine and paperwork I had to deal with and junk mail I would deal with later, and a breather-practice-thingy (I don’t know what it was called), and more cards (that pile was actually several piles, thanks to all who sent them!), and more paperwork…. By now, I could only see the legs of that desk, and anyway, I was used to working on the computer from the sofa. So I stayed there.
Then I moved to a new apartment. That I cleaned off the desk, of course, but now the habit to lounge on the comfy sofa while playing on the computer was too strong. My desk became the place to hold my printer and the TV. Until today.
Today I moved my furniture around, got the TV off the desk, and moved the laptop to the desk. Sure, I’ve still got my wireless router so I can take it to the love seat (I did a little downsizing), but my thought is, if I move it to the desk, and sit in the upright chair again, perhaps I will do more work there and less playing and wasting time. A little, sure (I’m online, after all), but simply sitting up, it means I pay more attention to what I’m doing. I have more focus on working.
It’s a mind-shift more than anything else. It’s one small change, but it feels good. Like I’m regaining a bit of a sense of purpose. Getting sick wiped that sense of purpose away ~ clean away, I tell ya’. And since a year ago (when I wasn’t sick anymore), I’ve had days of “purpose” and days of wallowing in “non-purpose”, which is a sucky place to be, in case you haven’t experienced it. But this one small change, it sort of lights a little fire under the purpose side. Maybe I’ll be able to sustain it a little longer now.
